Butterfly

So this might sound completely nerdy, but I don't care. 

I love organizing. 

There...I said it. My favorite time of the year is the beginning of school because I get to go to office supply stores and plan everything out and organize haha It's a sickness. But! I think I might have figured out something that I want to do with my life because of this weird obsession. 

Event planning! This sounds completely amazing to me!! I love small details and planning out complicated things. Being really busy and always having something to do is something I love and which comes along with event planning. I also love helping people. Nothing makes me feel better than making someone happy or making their life easier. I think it would be so much fun to help someone with a big event in their life and to take care of everything for them. And I'd get to be creative at the same time. It sounds perfect. Now I just have to figure out how to get into it. I'm always the one in charge of planning everything out when it comes to doing things with friends or throwing parties, but I don't know how to get my foot in the door with professional people. Maybe I can ask someone at the hotel I work at. We shall see.

Completely unrelated. Do you believe in reincarnation? I can't decide if I do or not. I believe in energy. I believe when we die, our energy is released into the world and stays there forever. Or maybe it goes into space and makes dark matter..I'm not sure. But I believe you're always around in some way. One of my co-workers and I were talking about this tonight. She said that she feels like in her past life she had a horrible experience with fire. I told her I've always felt a connection with certain historic events for some reason and can't explain it. It's nice talking to someone who understands your thoughts when most people just look at you like you're crazy haha The only other person I can talk to about this stuff is my mom. I kind of believe in reincarnation though. When I was little I always wondered why I feared things that I never remembered experiencing before. For example, I've always been terrified of planes for some reason. I just get a bad feeling about them and I don't know why. I've never had a bad experience before. So it makes me wonder if in a past life I died in one or maybe I will die in one. Who knows haha Makes you wonder though. I'd like to believe that when I die, I won't just be gone forever and in non-existence. I'd like to think I'll be back and be able to experience the world more and in different ways. Trying to look at the glass as being half full.

Well, I think that's enough weirdness for one post haha I'm not really sure what I even just wrote about. I'm so tired. My brain feels like it's in a fog. Guess it's time to go snuggle my pillow.