Maybe I'll start blabbing in here again. I sure as hell could use a spot to unload my brain every once in awhile. We shall see. Let's keep this as a casual fling for now..no serious commitments yet. 3rd date status up in here.
Brief update:
I'm now a senior in college. How freaking terrifying and exciting all at once. I really can't believe how fast time goes! I'm even trying to graduate a semester early, in December. I really really want to make that happen, even if I die a little from the workload. I plan on graduating in December then getting the hell out of AZ. Hopefully to Colorado or somewhere similar. Anywhere really. Maybe I'll even travel to different countries for awhile. I'm not sure. I'm going to see where the wind blows me. As long as it's far from here.
My parents just sold their house. I lived there for 9 years and they've been there for a total of 12. Lots and lots of memories created there so it was kind of sad to pack it up and say goodbye. But I think it will be a good change. The house was just too big for just my parents and it's not close to anything. They are going to rent a house for a year until they decide what they want to do. It's a nice rental house..hardwood floors, view of a lake, grass, near civilization, and an amazing smelling gardenia bush on the patio. I'm actually going to move in with them in the next month for a bit. My plan is to save as much money as I can so when I move out of state, I can actually afford to. Living with them will help a lot. And it'll be nice to have some company. I'm currently living alone in an apartment. It gets kind of sad sometimes. Especially since I use to live here with my old boyfriend.
That's another update. Over a year and a half relationship and lived with him, but it just wasn't working. Hardest thing I've had to do, but I know it was the right decision for the both of us. He was my best friend so it makes it even harder. It's not easy for me to find someone that I can trust and can be my crazy weird self with. I know one day we can be friends again though...just not now.
Hmm...what else. Something really bad happened. But I don't really want to talk about that. Just another shit storm to get through...but eventually it will be over and I'll be a stronger person. At least that's what I tell myself. Honestly, I just feel like a cave inside lately. It's hard to explain, but I just feel like I'm going through the motions of life without actually experiencing anything or being present. It's like I'm sleep walking. It's the weirdest and most frustrating thing. I usually just tuck everything into a little corner and forget about it and put a smile on. Really hasn't been working lately. I just wish I had someone I could count on. It seems like I'm always there for other people. It just sucks to feel alone. That's life though I guess.
I decided to start training to run a half marathon and a full marathon. I'm pretty nervous for them, especially since I have really bad knees and other injuries from soccer. I'm going to go to the doctor soon and get checked out though. I'm really excited to do the half and full marathons though. I've always wanted to run them, but never have for some reason. It's going to be great. It's something I'm doing just for myself and no one else.
I'm pretty sure that's the bulk of all the major events. So much for brief haha. I am going to be photographing a wedding in San Francisco in September and it's the first one that I'll be the main photographer for! Super nervous and excited! Should be a ton of fun though. Other than that, just the usual crap of life. Working a crap ton, not sleeping a crap ton. I really just need to escape and have a complete change. It's time for a new me. Maybe I can discover who that is soon.
Okay, well I'm going to stop rambling for now. Maybe I'll update this with random crap that amuses me or whatever. I don't know. For now, I'll leave you with this picture:
Llama cats...llats? Catmas? Who knows. They're cute. And I'm sure it made you smile :)
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